Sunday, May 18, 2008

hmmm.....okay....what i wanna post dis time....it's been a long long time i dint post any....cuz of i dun think i need to post any adi....but juz keep inside my memory...haha....well , seems like I've wrong , i should store some here.....
Hmm...alright , let's begin on March...this month is really a month that lift me to another level...being an Intern Cell Leader...!! WoW ! this news shocks me when i heard this ! Although I dun have any much big expression...but in my heart.....feels really cool for me , and I always keep inside my mind " I am already a leader , no more kiddo." And that's pretty cool for me...!! haha !!
And there's go April....9th , my birthday....18th birthday !! Yeeeee Haaaa!!! hahaha !!! well , that day was actually not that fun though....too bad cuz that day is Wednesday....and everyone has to go to school....or either work...if not....hehe...i can ask many buddies of mine like Joshua....Daniel....Terence...ZiKang....them all out for movies or go some where else....but God is good to me , I have a brother of mine who just came back from NS (on that time)...KC !! haha !! He is the oldest friend i keep for so long....hmm....already 6 years knowing him...really a best friend of mine....truly is....he accompany me to go to MV(although is quite boring for him , cuz he always go) , but he still accompany me...really appreciate that...accompany me to watch movie...walk around...eat....whole day time...haha....great...may God Bless my dearest brother , KC !
But there's something unhappy happen on that day too....it's really hard to forget what happen on that day.....April 9th....after having fun time at MV...we separated and go home...and i get down the bus at Asia Jaya LRT station...and plan to walk home . When i walking home , there is a china man came to me and beg me for some money to eat cuz his wallet is already empty and his money will delivered to his bank account on the next day , so he asked me to borrow him some money and then he will return it to me the next day... But that time he is wearing office suit and look like he is trying to lie me off or something...i juz simply give him 2 dollars and tell him doesn't need to pay me back anymore (as in my mind , i think that he is trying to lie my money). So he asked me a question , "is 2 dollars enough ?" And then i just answered him like very cool or something ," Eat from your heart and u will full." after that , i walk away..... Walao eh ! What is in my mind that time ??? Who I think i am ?? my Lord Jesus ??? turn 2 dollars to 200 ? or 2,000 ??? Or think that is it really possible 2 dollar can feed the man full ?? I'm just being too selfish !! I shouldn't do that to that man !! And after that when i realize that actually God wants to use me as a vessel to help that man...i repent... I run back to the LRT station and look for that guy....until the day get dark....i couldn't find that guy anymore...but what i can do is juz pray for that man...
Look my bro & sis , God did give me a present on that day but because of I'm being selfish and small hearted , I denied the present....but God still let me learn a lesson....BE AWAKE ANYTIME AS GOD WILL CALL YOU TO DO SOMETHING U HAD NEVER THOUGHT OF IT !!

So...this is what happen on me this past months....and there is also a big change of me in the spiritual realm....I'm started to hunger for prayers....burden for prayers....burden in preaching the word of God...but this all i also don't wanna tell my leader first....or unless they read this by themselves....because i dun think this is the time for me to tell it out that i have such a burden of preaching the word of God...and Yes...i did have a prophetic dream before as i saw myself standing on GA Youth's stage a preach the word of God....but only God knows when is the time to come....only God...only He knows......and although I'm hoping and hunger for it...which means I'm still like before...never change...always hope to have more equip....teaching...lessons from my leaders and church...more and more and more ! Until I'm qualified and i know the word of God much and much and clear !! So that I can preach the word of God without any mistaken made or any others dis understanding preach !
So now , I already catch the Key of A Great Leader in this generation like Pst Jaeson Ma, Pst Philip Mantofa, and of coz also David kor and Calvin kor , and the Key is --> PRAYER
So now i just start with prayers.....30 minutes to 1 hour per day.....And I also know why those great man who used by God in the old days and nowadays can pray up to 3 or 4 hours per day !! And there is actually a secret or i can say there is a format !! It's really really really easy to do it ! Want to know it ? Hehe , come and ask me =P