Awakening of Paul - June 7, 2008

Oh great.....have been to A4J, the greatest revival camp I ever go before....and....the Awakening of Paul.....
I'll share what I've receive in this camp...but I'll not share it day by day like how last time I used to share with my friends....

Just 1 simple word, RELATIONSHIP
I always heard from my bro & sis in church and also from my leaders in church said this,"If you don't have a good relationship with people, you won't have a good relationship with God." and ,"How can you love God whom you can't see when you try to love the people around you that u can see?" ..........

Yeah....I agree with what they said but....there is always have something in my mind....the life of Apostle Paul . I started to discover Apostle Paul's life much and much ever since God changed my name into Paul divinely, and I found out that Apostle Paul have not much friends, not in a marriage in his life, not much close friends, but he could build up and strengthen those churches in that time !! But of course ! he have his own partner for the bible says 2 people is always better than alone ! Alright...juz stop be4 I went too far....
Alright, I did not said that I disagree with what I've heard, I agree what they said ! But maybe I'm juz like a little special or something bla bla bla....LoL. Juz kidding =D
But what I'm trying to say is (juz for myself), even I don't really have a great great close relationship with my brother and sister in Christ, doesn't mean that I don't have a close relationship with GOD !! (man I'm now juz feel like wanted to shout it loud)

Can you understand that ?
There is always a reason & proof for my serious word. Juz check it out on my previous post, one of my memory recall. I've clearly wrote there what I've done during my NS camp days. See ? since God done that for me, can u imagine how close is the relationship between me and God ?
And during that time, I don't have a really really close relationship with my bro & sis in Christ. And not close doesn't mean no good ok?

So this time during the A4J Camp. I'm here dare to say it out loud that Pastor Philip Mantofa's relationship with God is as close as the relationship I'm with God in the NS Camp!
I'm not saying that I have the knowledge as he have ! I'm not saying that I have the experiences he had ! I'm saying the r-e-l-a-t-i-o-n-s-h-i-p between God and I !!
So when Pastor Philip preach the word of God, Father spoke to me and show me very clearly that the Pastor Philip is a mirror of myself in NS Camp .

And God keep on showing me those pictures of the days after I back from NS camp, how I sinned before God, how I return back to my comfort zone, how no discipline I am, how rude I am....and most importantly, HOW FAR AWAY I AM WITH GOD....
And after God shows me, I repent. I REPENT !! I REPENT for what I've done and sinned against and before God !
And miraclely God spoke to me and He said,"my dear Paul, for I have a purpose for your name, and you shall be restored. And now, what you have done during NS Camp, the authority and power, will back to you." At the same time, God give me this phrase,

Matthew 16:19
I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.


And greatly...I thank you Lord for this......really.....a lot....

So guys, have u learn something on it ? See, when I'm in my comfort zone, I keep myself away from God by doing my very own stuff ; When I'm addicted to sit in front the PC, even I got nothing much to do, I still sit in front the PC and din even get close to God;When I'm back in to my comfortable place, I rather lie down on bed nothing to do also don't wanna come close before God and pray before God.....and by this....day by day...time by time....I lose my spiritual power and authority....and faith...of cos...

BUT NOW !! There will never be the same !! Because I make a very very important turning point prayer before God !! And it has been answered by God !! The prayer of repentance !! And after I repent before God, God gives me Matthew 16:19 !
Which makes my both palm burn like fire that day.....But it's all right ! Even if my both palm burn in to ashes, I will not complain anything but smiling before the Lord and says," Thank you for doing this to me, because I know You have Your will and Your will shall be done on earth...and on me."

I felt that I wanna make a prayer in this time, either you have the same past as I been through, or you have left out of God really a long time, please follow my prayer below.

"Jesus my Lord, I come before your throne and I wanna praise you . I praise you for what you've done on me and letting me read this blog in this time, I believe it's your divine appointment for me. In this time I come before Your throne Lord, I repent. Lord I'm sorry for what I've done in the past, for I did not care how You feel, for I hurt your heart so much Lord, please have mercy upon me, forgive me Lord. In this time, I wanna praise You again my Lord. For You love me so much, for Your cross O Lord. Thank you Lord, I believe the blood you shed for me has already cleansed my sin and I'm no longer a left out person. I will keep You inside my heart as You kept me in Your heart. Thank you Lord, in Jesus precious name I pray, Amen."